Birds

Helsinki, 0 degrees

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There were birds in the sky, but I never saw them winging. No, I never saw them at all - 'til there was you.

I like to use weather conditions as metaphors for feelings. I've always been a person that has very much been affected by the weather so it feels natural for me to link the two. This week has felt like a fog, daze, storm, tempest and even calm weather. This has nothing to do with the weather outside, but more with the feelings inside of me. I managed to go back to work after being on sick leave for a week after my father's decease. I know for sure I couldn't have done my way back without the genuine kindness I've encountered at my workplace. When a person face-offs a loss like this, kindness and compassion is the only thing that can help you back to everyday life. However, I've been amazed by the understanding and kindness I've come upon. All the same, I've only started to find my way back to being myself, even though I don't think I'll ever be exactly the same person again. So bear with me.

It's funny how your mind plays tricks on you. Helsinki has received some 20 cm of snow this weekend, and I'm sure no other than me has paid any attention to the signs of spring. Yes, that's correct. Even though Helsinki has been very snowy this Shrovetide, I've heard several birds singing and seen them winging this weekend. I guess it's no wonder since my father has been on my mind, like he has been ever since I heard the terrible news, and one of my dad's favorite things in the world was just that - birds.

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I've never really reached the level of appreciation for birds as my father did. He had shelves full of bird books and enjoyed spotting them with binoculars in springtime. I've actually never known anybody else that could name as many birds as he did. I also remember how excited he was when a research realized by National Geographic showed that birds are the descendants of dinosaurs. He even brought me the first magazine showcasing this discovery.

Right now I cling on to anything and everything that can make me feel better and get me through the day. One could say that I'm in search of inner peace. This weekend it has been birds, and who knows, they might even help me through this spring as they multiply as we move towards warmer weather. What inspires you right now?

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  1. birds certainly are interesting to observe. for example yesterday I watched my fiance's grandparents' chicken colony for quite a while and yeah, it just was interesting! I can't even explain, why. maybe it's the way how they move themselves, their feathers..
    anyway, it's difficult to answer your question because our winter is stealing my inspiration and motivation and I'm kind of fed up because of this. so yeah, nothing special right now..

    Maiken,
    Maikeni blogi - part of me

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    1. I'm happy that you agree on birds and the fact that they are interesting.
      And about the weather, don't worry, next week the weather forecasts are promising 5-10 plus degrees! :)

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  2. grazie Elisabeth!

    sei gentilissima...

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  3. Todella kaunis inspiraation lähde. Pidän itsekin linnuista. ♥

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    1. Kiitos <3 Mukava huomata, että meillä on paljon yhteistä!

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      E

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